So a couple weeks ago I was in the kitchen on the floor crying because my veins in my calves were hurting me so much. In my first pregnancy I didn’t really have this problem in my legs (just in weirder areas), but in my second pregnancy closer to the end I was hurting pretty bad and could barely even walk at times. Now I haven’t even reached my third trimester yet and the veins have come back with a vengeance. I have spider veins in a bunch of different parts of my legs, my varicose veins on my lady parts hurt like hell most of the time, and my legs are already burning with too much pressure. So the night that I was crying cause I couldn’t take it, my husband took matters into his own hands and did some research and ordered me some compression socks, and let me tell you THEY WORK!!! Well, so far they work and I’m hoping they continue to work. The research into them is very interesting on exactly how they work and what they do for you and is worth the read if you ever find time. I didn’t know that athletes and people of about any age could beneficially use them too. I’m actually going to make my husband get some at some point since he drives a lot, and I plan to continue to wear them after I’m pregnant to help me heal faster from some tough running workouts. So it is definitely worth looking into and thinking about pregnant or not in my opinion!!! But make sure you also read the do’s and the don’ts with them if you do plan to get some!!!
Made it to 26 weeks and now am an emotional mess. I am keeping up with my workouts except the exercises that have me on my back, those I cut out. I have resorted to just running stairs and doing my mobile elliptical since it has turned winter. My stairs have decreased to a 15 minute time since one day I tried to do 20 and I actually burnt myself out, which I have never done on stairs before. I felt like I was going fast when I got to 18 minutes, but my legs would only help me go up at a slow walk. So instead of pushing myself to exhaustion like I’m trying not to do and to try to save my knees from the added weight they are not used to, I decreased it. In January I plan to run down the stairs, but walk up for the 15 minutes and then in February I plan to just walk the stairs so I don’t fall or risk the baby’s life, but still work on staying active. I’ve never been this far along in the winter before in a pregnancy, so it is all a big adjustment to me to just having to keep the working out inside away from the extreme cold, snow, ice, and never ending darkness since the nights are so long right now.
These photos are from week 24 of all my pregnancies. First pregnancy top left, second bottom left, and third right.
These photos are from week 26 of all my pregnancies. Once again first top left, second bottom left, and third right.
This next comparison is from my second pregnancy and this pregnancy in a front facing view at 26 weeks. I’m sharing this comparison because I find it very interesting how different my stomach looks in both of them, even my belly button. My belly in the second pregnancy was definitely getting rounder at this point in the pregnancy, when in this one my belly isn’t quite there yet, and it looks like my abs are still trying to hold it all in on the sides.
These are two back views at 26 weeks of this pregnancy. My back muscles are still trying to hold in there and so are my shoulder muscles. When I don’t try to super flex you can barely tell I’m holding a big belly in the front.
So fitness is still progressing as much as it can be without being too dangerous for the baby. We went and saw our little one last week and she was weighing at about one pound and thirteen ounces. She was curled up sideways right under my diaphragm though, which explains why sometimes it is almost impossible to breathe, but makes me feel loved that she likes to be so close to my heart. Here are a couple of pictures of her.
With my first two pregnancies I didn’t get any stretch marks around my stomach. I only got them a little around my boobs because of breastfeeding. With both of the pregnancies I used this. I had done research and research told me to use cocoa butter, well I tried using that, but I did’t feel like it was thick enough and it would eat my hands since my hands are super sensitive. This Vaseline thick cocoa butter that I found at Walmart seemed to work better for me. I had put it on every night after I showered since I like to take hot showers and I know that that dries out your skin. So what I did and have been doing with this pregnancy is rubbing it on my stomach before bed. The only part that sucks is that it doesn’t just disappear right away after you rub it in. It stays quite awhile. Also it ruins shirts. So I have a night shirt that I plan to throw away after this pregnancy that I put on after I put the stuff on so I only ruin that shirt. I’m not saying it will work for everybody, and I’m not saying that it is foolproof for me either. I’m not even entirely sure that it will work for me with this last pregnancy. Only time will tell. I am only sharing my experience and what I had used before that seemed to work for me in case anyone is looking for suggestions.
Well now is sadly the time that I was hoping was never going to come. It is time for me to start backing off a little on my working out/exercising. These last few weeks I have felt way too emotional, depressed, and exhausted. It is getting to the point where I can’t even make it through the day without breaking down and crying and wanting to just lay on the floor and pass out. Even during working out or running lately I’ve stopped now more often than not to cry my eyes out cause of having such a hard time trying to finish. I know that I shouldn’t be this exhausted and tired during just the end of my second trimester. This is supposed to be the happy trimester where I feel great and energized again until the last one hits me. At first I thought that it may just be hormones that are causing me to be way too emotional and making it so I can’t hold myself together, but when I thought more into it I realized that my body is just not wanting to carry itself, and if my body is having this hard of a time functioning right now, I’m worried about the health of the baby.
This is hard for me to do because I am so used to pushing myself to my breaking point, and that is what I have been doing lately, but I have another life in me to worry and think about. This is the most I have done with any of my pregnancies. Some days sometimes more than three times a week consists of hour and a half long workouts that are the same as I was doing before I got pregnant. I had it in my head wrongly that I should be progressing just like I usually do when I push myself during exercise. Usually you get better and stronger, and it is hard to wrap your head around the fact that when you are pregnant you slowly digress and things get harder. I was doing so good for so long that I honestly wasn’t expecting the time to slow down to come so soon. I know I need to be easier on myself mentally because it is just part of the process, but it is hard when I’m always in such desperation to reach my goals and to be the best I can be, which sometimes I know that the me I want to be can be unrealistic. Multiple times my husband has told me that I’m going to kill myself with how much I’m trying to do at one time and how much I push myself. But I realize that my ultimate dream and goal is to be the best mother I can be, so I need to back off for now until my baby’s life isn’t in the brink. I want my body to be able to give her everything she needs and I need to be in a healthier happier state of mind especially with the holidays coming up so I can be the mother I need to be for my other two kids and for the baby when the time comes. Pushing myself to exhaustion and getting upset at myself for not seeing progress isn’t going to help anyone at all, least of all myself. Our baby’s life is more important to me than my desperation to not look like a failure and to feel some kind of success and self worth.
So I’m slowly going to back down. For example after my hour long workout today I ran 2 miles instead of 3.5, which I don’t mind at all since it is starting to get freezing out making it harder to run anyway. Depending on the day and what my body tells me will depend on how I take my workouts. I might cut my hour ones in half or my biking or running mileage down on some days. Other days that I have half an hour workouts I’m probably going to do the whole workout and cardio routine like I have been if I feel up to it, until I hit near the end of my pregnancy and know I need to cut way down. I’m beginning to see that maybe P90x and 21Day Fix Extreme and Core De Force may not be the best to do when you are 36 weeks pregnant. I will just pay more attention and listen to my body and give my body what it needs when that time comes like I am deciding to do now.
Here are my comparisons for week 20 in all my pregnancies and week 22 in all my pregnancies. We will see if I manage to keep up with the staying more fit this time around like I have been, which may be possible since I am still and still plan to do more in the fitness department than my other two pregnancies even with backing down a little.
As you can tell in my arms in the second set of pictures that I am way more muscular than I was in previous pregnancies. The picture of me in the blue shirt right above is from my second pregnancy and my arms just look so small to me compared to now. so weight lifting and push ups and things like that that I have been doing has definitely helped with keeping the muscles there.
I’m tearing at the seams
growing more tired it only seems
Can’t hold myself together
Can’t talk with any skill
Can’t get through the day
With any extra time to fill
Trying not to break down
No comfort to be found
I’m fauxing a smile
That’s getting worse every day
I’m trying to breathe without crying
Trying to keep monsters at bay
But every day they seep closer
I’m closer to giving up
Just need some time to rest
Just need some time to slump
Need some time for myself
Time I’ll never have
that time doesn’t exist
In my world or my head
Need as much time as i can savor
For my dreams and my goals
When in reality I’m failing
Dying, becoming skin and bones
I’m running myself ragged
Running myself sick
Trying too hard for everything
Spreading myself thin
I feel like I’ve been waiting on this book FOREVER. Getting pregnant and my husband working on starting his own business definitely slowed this one down, but I am happy to say that I am most fond of this one and even after reading it through so many times I was still enticed and not wanting it to end. The funny thing is that this is the book that I’ve been most excited about since the beginning, since before I even started this series this was the installment that I’ve been waiting patiently to write. The reason why I waited was because I knew I had to set some ground work first and I wanted to warm up on my writing so I wouldn’t happen to possibly disappoint myself when it came time to write this one. It was so far the most challenging and most rewarding one to write and I can’t wait to continue their stories as they all come together in the fourth book.
Here is the link to amazon if you care to pick up this book and adventure in some of the wonders of Sapientia with Liz.
And Here is the link to Barnes and Nobles.
Here is the latest comparison photo at 18 weeks for my last pregnancy and this pregnancy. The changes are starting and I’m slowly starting to lose my form as the baby grows bigger. I’m still fitter than my last pregnancy and can still do more than I was able to before. Makes me super sad though looking back at old photos from right before this pregnancy and seeing how great my abs were though. Really hoping that after this pregnancy I can get back to where I was and maybe even faster than last time. Can not wait to FINALLY get to work on my fitness without regressing and see how far I can get with my body if my thyroid levels agree to cooperate. Here is my last ab photo I took from June 24th before we found out we were pregnant on July 4th.
So you can see where some of my sadness is coming from 🙂 Will be a challenge to get back to that point again, but can’t wait to try when the time comes. The baby is doing great though 🙂 and looking cuter and cuter 🙂 This is from two weeks ago.
On a side note, I’m so sorry that my posts have been made not as often as I would like. This last week was full of appointments and family emergencies and such that time escaped me once again. I’m actually supposed to be at the moment finishing packing up and getting ready for a wedding that we have to travel a ways for that I’m in. But HOPEFULLY super soon I will have news on my latest book that should be published soon and will be able to share that 🙂